I am not feeling well today. Probably because of my physics quiz's mark. I am soooo sad with my mark TT_____TT. I feel like I am the only one in the class who gets that mark. If you are wondering how much I got... Hmmmmm... Not so much. Just enough to make me sad. The truth is I am not a fanatic of physics. I barely pass it with an A during my SPM time. I AM HAVING problems with physics since a long time ago. IF I am so good in physics, I will choose to take engineering course rather then medicine. So there is a hikmah why I am in medicine field rather than engineering field. I seriously cannot imagine myself as an engineer.
Physics always makes me sick and have butterfly in stomach. I am more scared of physics then additional mathematics during my school days. I cannot describe to you in words how much 'scared' I am. I can still vividly remember how I was coping with SPM's physics papers. I studied days and nights. And after I had answered the SPM papers, oh mine what a relieved.
Now, I am having that fear again. Ya Allah, please help me. Please ya Allah I really wanna be brave in front of the physics' questions. I wanna fall in love with physics ya Allah. Ya Allah help me ya Allah. Ya Allah I am begging you. So, YES... I am willing to study days and nights again to get good grades. Ya Allah please help me to be strong. I may not be the smartest girl in my batch but ya Allah I really want to make my parents happy. I just want to be the best that I can be ya Allah. Ya Allah, guides me ya Allah to change and become a better person. Never leave me alone ya Allah. InsyaAllah. InsyaAllah. InsyaAllah.